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August 24, 2009
Do Awards Mean You're Better?
Hi again,I wanted to tack this discussion on to my last inquiry about academic/outsiders, since this concern of mine IS related to the academic GAME.
Since beginning my DMA studies (which I have abandoned, temporarily), I have been exposed to the whole "awards" craze. Since I started composing late in life, 30, and obviously needed time to grow, I discovered at ages 36-39 that I was exempt from most competitions due to my age.
1. Are there no opportunites for oldies like me because I've expired? (What about Bruckner, and he's NOT the only one)
2. Are "Guggenheim" winners really better than the rest of us?
3. The term Winner repulses me.
Maybe I have low self-esteem problems, but I am actually afraid of these competitions. Since I lowered my guard earlier, I will continue to be as honest as possible, since I do not want my own potential for self -deception to creep in as pride and ego and destroy what truth may come from this.
Originally from Discussion Forum - NetNewMusic, ReBlogged by newmusicrebloggers on Aug 24, 2009 at 11:29 AM